I’m continually amazed that I haven’t run out of things to write about Outlander. Every time I think I’ve gone to the well one time too many times something will happen…in real life that reminds me of something that happened in the books. And, once again, I am inspired to write. I marvel at the depth of the characters and story Diana Gabaldon has written. I wonder what she thinks of those of us who ponder and mine her stories and find,…well, what do we find? I find inspiration and truth, truth about life and relationships. The TV adaptation of Diana’s story has turned out to be no less engaging and just as full of inspiration and truths. Last week, we saw truths about life moving on after loss, how life doesn’t always go as planned, “…you will hear no in this world…’, how life can hand us unexpected blessings, the miracle of mercy, and self-sacrifice for the sake of others.
This week our characters are all heading “home”. As a reader of the books, I know what is awaiting Jamie at Lalleybroch, but what the show has done so wonderfully is help me flesh out some of the things the book only touches on. In many instances, they have deepened and enriched my understanding of this story and its characters. This next episode appears to be attempting to do just that. The clip I saw of Claire and Bree looks to fill in one of those gaps in the book and more deeply develop my understanding of some of the main characters, specifically Claire and Bree.
In the clip, Bree has decided to quit Harvard. She says she needs a break. She said her mother isn’t listening, a daughter’s lament worldwide. She says she has tried to be her old self. It isn’t working. I hope that there is more to this story arc because right now Claire is looking pretty self-absorbed. Really? She didn’t know this news might affect her daughter long-term? Think about what has happened to Bree. She recently discovered that she has been lied to her entire life about who she is. The father she loved isn’t her “real” father. He lied to her too. And, who her real father is is too unbelievable to be true and yet,… she saw Gellis go through the stones. Of course her life would feel foreign to her, she isn’t who she thought she was, no one is who she thought they were. She might understand her mother better, but that doesn’t take away the years that came before. The home she had and the person she was no longer exist. Brianna can’t go home.
Jamie is finally going home to Scotland to the place that has always been his dream. The place where he had hoped to live a quiet life. He is happy to be going home to the bosom of his family, but it has been a long while and life there has gone on without him. He is not the same man who left, so many years ago. In some ways, he is better. He has moved on and made peace with the loss of Claire, but he also comes home with more loss. Most importantly, he is coming home to a place where he has no real purpose. The estate is no longer his and has been run for years without him. Claire isn’t there. William isn’t there. I’m sure they will be over joyed to have him home a free man for the first time in decades. But, I suspect the novelty of freedom will soon fade and he will soon face a predicament similar to Brianna’s …who is he…where is his place? Will he feel at home or will he feel himself to be an Outlander. Can Jamie go home?
We know that Claire will soon be given information that will change the course of her life and I am so glad that it appears the show will let us see her grapple with that decision. It isn’t a small one. I’ve said several times since this season started that her choice to go through the stones was monumental. She truly doesn’t know what is on the other side.
…Jamie and Claire have not had the luxury of time together to change and grow. They have become the people they are now because of the things that happened to them while they were apart. And, it occurred to me that each may be longing for someone who no longer exists. Scary stuff. It makes that trip through the stones an even bigger gamble than I first thought and that ringing shop bell sounds a bit more like a harbinger of uncertainty than of hope…
…What could possibly make Claire take that risk, along with traveling through the stones and leaving her daughter for what she has to believe is forever? I have to wonder if she truly had a plan B. What was she going to do if she found him married or recognizably altered from the man she knew? Would she have stayed just to be near him committed to loving him however she could? Does she love him that much? It feels very much like blind faith to me. Faith that the man she loved and still loves would be there. Despite whatever he had to endure, she has to believe he will still be her Jamie. My own life experience tells me she is probably right, but it was still a hell of a risk…
The decision to go will have to be made very quickly, there will a small moment of time in which they believe they know where Jamie will be. I’m so glad the show has decided to let us see Claire and Bree make that decision together. I want to hear what a conversation like that could possibly sound like. The regrets and grief she would have about leaving her daughter would be real and her doubts and fears about what she’ll find in that print shop would be real. I have no doubt that Caitriona will play them all to perfection. Have I said how amazing the performances have been this season? Yes? Well, it bears worth repeating. They have moved me.
Going to post my poem again because I can and because I’m feeling Claire’s insecurity and fear, but lord I’m excited to see it all play out…..